Essy Masaa

Sat next to a blind guy today.. Actually he came to sit next to me. And we started talking…
He told me that neither of us has seen God or the devil but they are both manifested through people, and for him he can’t see people either so to him they are manifested through actions and energy.

He said that he could sense my energy was willing to have him sit there although he could sense I was nervous (of which I was, always afraid my foot in the mouth will have me say something that I would overthink about the whole day lol)

What energy do you put out even if you dress up and show up.. What’s your energy?

1. If you don’t love yourself, you cannot truly love others
2. If you’re not happy with yourself and content with your portion, you cannot be happy for others
3. If you don’t believe that you have flaws and are less than perfect, you cannot truly forgive others for theirs
4. If you are so focused on yourself and things that revolve around you, you will never see that life is bigger than just you and that you don’t have to travel around the world to leave your energy in all of it.

Energy comes from within yourself.. Your heart and your soul

Of cos becoming a butterfly is what we think is a blessing to the caterpillar, But what if the caterpillar wasn’t ready? Just think, if right now you started flying…yes it’s a brilliant thing but were you done walking? Did you do all the things you said you would do as you walked or did you say,’ I’m not ready?”

…Life has different seasons, do the best with the season you’re in, flourish in it, find good in the worst situation, be thankful for your portion, don’t give up on the dreams you have, work at your goals and enjoy each moment because even if you don’t see it you are growing and changing.

The best changes happen, from inside out and are never noticed by ourselves but by the people around us. Slowly you start the process and before you know it, voila! you’re a butterfly ! But if you waste moments, lick your wounds, dwell on negativity and are sited there in your caterpillar moment waiting for it to end.

Remember, a caterpillar also becomes a moth.

So on a certain day you’re feeling lazy and bored but you have to go to town to for one thing or the other. You know for sure you will be in and out of town maximum 30 minutes so why dress up? You take a quick shower, wear the jeans you have neglected for a while coz they don’t bring out the best in you but they are comfortable, a shirt and some shoes. You’re really not making an effort, after all it’s in and out. But because you’re a lady and at least want to be presentable your brush your eyebrows and put on some lip balm, basically nothing is on fleek except your heart with the lord lol.. So you go into town and gosh the shop you were going to is closed so now you have to go to another.. Maximum one hour isn’t that bad you tell yourself. And just like that things fall apart, you meet your old friend and she looks like she is walking around with a snap chat filter 😕 you try to speed up the conversation but she wants to catch up and now you feel like your in the twilight zone, all of a sudden you notice how everyone in town is dressed up and you’re just there standing out! Now you def have to find the thing you were going to buy and get out. You bump into a friends sister so you know she will be asking your friend if everything is okay with you coz now you have been looking and haven’t found what you’re looking for so you’re tired, frustrated and more lazy and bored. All that shows in your face , roho safi unajua umebeat lol by this time you have met your ex, your crush, your frenemy, your primary school desk mate, your high school bully, your former neighbor, your friend that went to South Africa and just came back with an accent, the kid who always had a crush on you and gave you compliments, this time they didn’t give you any, all this people sent by the enemy to destroy your self esteem. So you give up and decide to head home and just then you meet someone who calls you by your Instagram name and so you know they know you slay 😂😬you cannot really afford to act like you’re too good to say hi and chat a little, they don’t seem impressed. You have even lost your number one and only fan! What is life? 😡 So you finally get home and all you can do is call a meeting with yourself and rethink and brainstorm all your steps and what you could have done different .. And just then in that moment you get a text “hey nice to see you today, still beautiful as always” what? 😳…

It doesn’t matter who it is, Marry whoever sent you that text.😂

Picture this…

By going to school you are basically investing in yourself for the career you want.. because you know your credentials you won’t apply for just any job, you will know how much your worth and the value you are adding to a certain company or business. All this because you have invested in yourself by studying the craft and sharpening your skills. You basically know what you are bringing to the table.

That to me is the same as working on yourself, taking time off and really working on yourself. Mending your flaws and also at times accepting and loving them. When you meet someone who has invested in themselves this way, they know their worth, they know what they are bringing to the table and they know what value they are adding to any form of relationship/ friendship. Such a person cannot just be with just anybody, such a person is in no rush to jump into anything, simply because they have invested in their self growth and are careful with the “company” they choose to be in.

So if you meet someone who is just so eager and ready to start something with just anybody, most of the time they have not invested in themselves. They have not been with just themselves long enough to correct, embrace or love their flaws most of the time because nobody wants to see that side of themselves. And so they are in a repeated cycle of trial and error because by not knowing who you are, who you want to be and who you longer want to be, every “company” looks good enough to be in.

Beautiful is when two people who have done self investing and growth get together, A lot of building, growth and mending takes place. The “company” has no option but to succeed.

But sadder is when one who invests in themselves gets entangled with one who hasn’t because it doesn’t matter how much self growth they have done or even what they are bringing to the table because that table in itself is already a wreck.